What they don’t know

They don’t know how shy I am in my own skin, they don’t know the insecurities I carry with me every day. They have no idea that, at most times when I pray it always ends up in tears. 

This is the one time every day where I don’t have to act strong. They have no idea that I have seen the world through fearful eyes and they have no idea that I have seen my face in pain. That mirror reflection that makes you turn around and say; “why am I still alive”. 

I have been there but most importantly I am here now.

This piece, in fact my blog is like Iviwe stripped, this is my way, my way of dealing and getting over it all. I’m sure you have your way. I have a very good friend, let’s call her “belle” she does it through music and sends me pictures in tears..hahhahahaha and me I write.

 I do have a diary and weird enough my work diary and personal diary are incorporated, you will never know how personal it is because there is no secrets everything is in bullet form.

Some days it will be something simple like; “there is more to life”..My over thinking head knows exactly what is going on. Then Sundays when I go over what I had felt throughout the week I look and smile. Generally I don’t allow myself to go through things longer than a week.

 Life must go on, I must live and I must appreciate that God keeps me alive, he gives me days. Second chances and opportunities to better me to meet his plan half way..

Any way all that aside...

The most important thing is that no one knows you better than what you do. My close friends might know me well and my mother knows me super well but nobody knows me better than me, the voice in your head that says; “I can do it, when your body says you can’t” is you all knowing you better.

Always learn from the people you meet, never walk away angry or bitter always find ways to settle things. It makes life easier to appreciate and live, walking around angry or bitter must be very heavy.

                                          

                                          “Pray and let prayer change you”