Potential

I sometimes sit in my bed and think of all the hassles I have had to face in my life and how they have had an impact within the decisions I have made in life. The people I have hurt and disappointed with the simple excuse, "arg please I have been through so much".

Until I learnt the reality that no one makes our decisions, we are born in situations and sometimes situations we can not bare to live with but the reality is that god has a plan for us but he can not pave the way. With strength and belief we must help him  in  the process of his mighty love to help us.

Our parents have problems our friends have problems but we must never blame our homes and circumstances when life has knocked us over.They say such things are to make us stronger all though when swimming in the mud, the pain and shame is heavy once its all gone it seems like a distant memory.

I think there is nothing harder than building yourself from nothing, but reality is you would not be the first and you would be paving a better life for the next generation. When i want to give up varsity or anything that seems hard I think of my parents; my dad is a business man and he never even sat in a lecture room, he possibly had more potential than me but poverty never became his excuse it became his motive. My mother is a divorcee and it was never the plan but she did not abandon me.

My parents divorce hit me soo hard it replayed in my head for years and years,but that became my motivation. When I realised that society labels children from such situations : with disruptive and “corruptive”behaviour. I took my stand and said, "I will achieve as much as I would with mom and dad being at home guiding me together, because it is what the lord has on my map of life".

I look at my friends and we all have some situation that has hit us hard or hangs like a dark cloud, the loss of a parent, abuse, divorce, bad relationships.. some have made it and some haven’t .

My mother always said and still does when I cry over the phone (bcs i don’t cry in public) hahahah..."my child be what you want while you still can”. Its not easy she will say thus there will always be someone to help the lord will never leave you in the dark there is always that helping hand.

All I'm saying in this post is keep your head high, we all make mistakes and some might reflect more negatively than others but never sell yourself short thinking there is some miracle way to success..there isn’t. It's all about you and until we realise  that all hard patches are there to prepare us for the big day we will come short of our potential!